Feb 25 2025

 I'm not angry

i'm not upset

i still love you very much

im just scared that you might get annoyed at me for being me

i apologize for trying to stop from leaving and walking out

but walking just leaves a bad taste in my mouth and from what i know, what i feel and think is right

that i needed to stop you from doing so ....so i can learn more about you and help you from doing that

because walking out can be VERY HURTFUL for the person they walked out from

instead of learning and dealing with the problem instead of the other party trying to reason with you

....they just feel shitty. 

 

that doesn't mean i don't love you and don't want to give you space........

HOW Come everytime you are cornered

everytime you get called out

you don't like it 

you feel the need to either prove yourself or walk out

and then it will loop you'll be like "So i'm not allowed to defend myself?"

"so i am not allowed to have space for myself?"

That's...not what i am trying to say at all........

I WANNA WORK WITH YOU SO WE CAN BETTER

I WANNA KNOW YOU BETTER

PLEASE

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH LET ME JUST SHOW

but I AM SCARED

BECAUSE EVERYTHING I TRY TO DO FOR US

FOR YOU

YOU JUST GET UPSET AT ME

YOU WALK OUT

im scared if i piss you off as i breath

im scared im not giving you "space"

Im scared of being me

i'm sorry for being me

7:27 pm